I buckled. Today I bought Deven a child harness. I like that this one in particular attempts to disguise itself as a monkey “backpack” when upon closer examination, it’s just something to hook a leash to. You can’t fit anything into the “compartment”, it’s just a leash. I will be putting my kid on a leash.
Deven is getting to the age where he won’t sit in a cart or a stroller for any amount of time without getting really upset about it, throwing an embarrassing fit, or attempting to escape. He has learned that he can stand up in the shopping cart and that it makes mommy scream. I have found that if we are in a place with lots of room and things to look at, like a store or the mall, Deven does fine. He just runs around, but he obeys when I tell him to not touch something because there are plenty of other things to touch. He is becoming more independent, and I feel like it would be easier on everyone if I just found something to help me keep up.
I remember, before becoming a mom seeing the ocassional parent stringing the kid along on a leash, like a dog, and laughing at them. I remember thinking “I will never be that mom with the kid on the leash. For fuck’s sake, IT’S A LEASH.” I didn’t realize the challenge that comes along with a stubborn toddler who just wants to explore the world, who lacks the communication skills to understand “Stay close, where are you going? GET BACK HERE!” It has certainly put me in a different position. I know the first few times I go out with him on the leash I will probably be somewhat self-conscious if not flat out embarrassed, but I will know that everyone will be a lot happier in this situation. Deven will have the freedom to run and I will be exhausted. Those judgemental eyes should look at this situation as birth control.
Deven seems to be moving along with his therapy even though we have missed a couple of sessions due to sickness. He’s learned just about every part of his face and yesterday learned to point to his toes. The other day at the Olive Garden we handed him a kids menu which has different food characters with faces, and he pointed to the tomato’s mouth and made his “puh-puh-puh” sound. I don’t know what that means exactly, but I took it as HE POINTED TO SOMETHING! HE’S NEVER DONE THAT BEFORE! And he related the tomato’s mouth to his own. That is a HUGE leap. Now we just have to get him to talk about the things he points out.
I would write more, but I am exhausted and can’t focus worth crap right now. I am going to take a shower and go to bed.